I'm back from my long absence. I needed a bit of a break from life, if not painfully obvious from my last post :). Lots of "extended" family turmoil that was depleting, sad, and just plain not my responsibility has been very decidedly and forcefully "put away" and bound up by a firm boundary. That I daily pray stays put; dang but boundaries are hard. Seriously, if I had learned or retained half of what I'm learning through therapy and just TALKING about things and hearing the validation, things would be so different now. But, I suppose, that is our journey.
I as a human am a walking paradox. I HATE learning by doing and failing and then doing it again. I would SO much rather someone show me how to DO something the right way so when I try it, I can execute to it perfectly, the first time. However, in living, though I hate failing, growing up (and even now sometimes), you couldn't tell me anything. As I've grown into an adult I've learned to discern those in my life who love me for me and have my best interst in heart, and gravitate toward them. To them, I listen. From them I learn. And growing, I've become somewhat ok with making a mistake and learning from it. I'm an imperfect person, living in an imperfect world, saved by an amazing, gracious and perfect God. It's a daily lesson.
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